"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain."
I actually didn't write that, and I wish I could credit the author but I'm not sure who did write it. I wanted to post it because I think it spoke so strongly to me. This past year was testing one on my emotions. My heart experienced only as I know to be some of the highest of highs and lowest of lows, aka falling in love and getting through heartbreak. It was a relationship that took only a few weeks to build, a few months to enjoy, one day to become destroyed, and half a year to get over. Pain wasn't a foreign subject to me, I've dealt with heart ache and break before. This was just somehow different because it felt like a path a chose, rather than it being the cards I was dealt. I wish I could have read this when I was trying to swim through the thick of the heartache, hating the pain, never wanting to love again. Fortunately time heals all, and you're usually left with a new perspective. I think it important not to fear pain (emotional and physical), that fear will only hold you back, become your crutch and who really wants that anyway. Save this and give it a read whenever you're going through something painful that only feels like a tunnel of darkness. There's always light at the end, a new sun always rises.